“happiness is strange; 
it comes when you are not seeking it. 
when you are not making an effort to be happy, 
then unexpectedly, mysteriously, 
happiness is there, 
born of purity, 
of a loveliness of being.” 
Krishnamurti, J.

*by Ruben Ireland

“i didn't know what i wanted to do, 
but i always knew the woman i wanted to be.”
Furstenberg, D. V.

“Probably the most dangerous thing about an academic education, at least in my own case, is that it enables my tendency to over-intellectualize stuff, to get lost in abstract thinking instead of simply paying attention to what's going on in front of me. Instead of paying attention to what's going on inside of me. As I'm sure you guys know by now, it is extremely difficult to stay alert and attentive instead of getting hypnotized by the constant monologue inside your head. What you don't yet know are the stakes of this struggle. In the twenty years since my own graduation, I have come gradually to understand these stakes, and to see that the liberal arts cliche about "teaching you how to think" was actually shorthand for a very deep and important truth. "Learning how to think" really means learning how to exercise some control over how and what you think.”

"The really important kind of freedom involves attention, and awareness, and discipline, and effort, and being able truly to care about other people and to sacrifice for them, over and over, in myriad petty little unsexy ways, every day."

Wallace, D. (1962-2008)

“i wasn’t sure what day it was because life is meaningless.
turns out it’s thursday.
the thing about life still applies.”
Nietzsche, F.

(please) give peace a chance

Mozambique, Central African Republic, Democrati Republic of Congo, Egypt, Mali, Nigeria, Somalia, Sudan, Sud Sudan, North Korea, South Korea, Afghanistan, Burma-Myanmar, Pakistan, Chechnya, Dagestan, Iraq, Israel, Syria, Turkey, Yemen, Colombia, Mexico...

{random poetry #60}

[ One Hundred and Eighty Degrees ]

Have you considered the possibility
that everything you believe is wrong,
not merely off a bit, but totally wrong,
nothing like things as they really are?

If you've done this, you know how durably fragile
those phantoms we hold in our heads are,
those wisps of thought that people die and kill for,
betray lovers for, give up lifelong friendships for.

If you've not done this, you probably don't understand this poem,
or think it's not even a poem, but a bit of opaque nonsense,
occupying too much of your day's time,
so you probably should stop reading it here, now.

But if you've arrived at this line,
maybe, just maybe, you're open to that possibility,
the possibility of being absolutely completely wrong,
about everything that matters.

How different the world seems then:
everyone who was your enemy is your friend,
everything you hated, you now love,
and everything you love slips through your fingers like sand.
Moramarco, F.

 panicked people, unreasonable behaviour

"What matters is that you allow your heart - not your ego - to rule your life. Then very little matters because you will be a humble person and you'll take most of life as it comes. If it rains, you get wet; if they don't show up on time, you wait; if they don't pay you, you eat less; if they don't love you, so what, you didn't come to please them anyway; if they don't think you're special, that's marvelous, it frees you from having to thank them for their compliments. If life doesn't go the way you want, accept the way it does go, use it as your teacher." 
Wilde, S. in Whispering Winds of Change 

i love you, but dropbox gives me more space.

i am not a pig farmer. 
the pigs had a great time, 
but i didn't make any money.
Nelson, W.

fuck the swarm said the fly.

* from the economist 

“after one look at this planet any visitor from outer space
would say i want to see the manager.”
Burroughs, W.

“And you tried to change, didn’t you?
Closed your mouth more.
Tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake…
You can’t make homes out of human beings.
Someone should have already told you that.
And if he wants to leave, then let him leave.
You are terrifying, and strange, and beautiful.
Something not everyone knows how to love.”
Shire, W., in Women Who Are Difficult To Love

{random poetry #59}

[ From Out the Cave ]

When you have been
at war with yourself
for so many years that
you have forgotten why,
when you have been driving
for hours and only
gradually begin to realize
that you have lost the way,
when you have cut
hastily into the fabric,
when you have signed
papers in distraction,
when it has been centuries
since you watched the sun set
or the rain fall, and the clouds,
drifting overhead, pass as flat
as anything on a postcard;
when, in the midst of these
everyday nightmares, you
understand that you could
wake up,
you could turn
and go back
to the last thing you
remember doing
with your whole heart:
that passionate kiss,
the brilliant drop of love
rolling along the tongue of a green leaf,
then you wake,
you stumble from your cave,
blinking in the sun,
naming every shadow
as it slips.

Sutphen, J. in Straight Out of View

push it away.

"with no room for over-bidding or risk-taking." 

"i want to repeat one word for you:
roll the word around on your tongue for a bit. 
it is a beautiful word, isn't it? 
so strong and forceful, the way you have always wanted to be. 
and you will not be alone. 
you have never been alone. 
don't worry. everything will still be here when you get back. 
it is you who will have changed.”
Miller, D. 

“autumn is the hardest season. 
the leaves are all falling, 
and they're falling like
they're falling in love with the ground.” 
Gibson, A


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